i bought the go! team album today for $2 at reckless. i also bought a few vonnegut books at myopic. i don't have any money and yet i keep spending money. odd. isn't it.

i became enamored with the first two hold steady records today. they are great. steve and i agree that craig finn is some sort of modern prophet of drunkenness. bar band of the century.

i am struggling with the idea of college again. i understand it. i just want to run away from it. i don't want to be a teacher. be a part of the system. i wish college was when a teacher came over and drank coffee and listened to records with me and we talked about books we were reading and he told me things i didn't know and we learned from each other in discussion. my life would be college then. i would play him benoit pouilard and he would tell me about 20th century philosophers and we would fight about Nietzsche. i would buy a frozen pizza while he was taking a cigarette break and then we would listen to dylan and discuss how he is really all i really need. how he changed everything. yeah. that would be great. too bad i have to sit in a room with hung over jocks while some guy sweats over explaining the meaning of this and that hoping that he is vague enough to incite questions. sorry guy. i understand you. i just don't want to be there. i want to be cruising the record store for jazz records. i want to be recording songs that will be talked about for years to come. discovered in the dark depths of other music junkies hard drives. i like to dream.