hm. i am not sure what to say about yesterday.

i went job searching today. who says i am unproductive? walked all the way down michigan ave and it was actually really nice out. great breeze nice sun. and i usually hate warm weather so this is just shocking to me. sweat is the number one enemy of guys my size. it ruins me. i have been letting my hair and my beard grow out. my hair is starting to really curl. i am not down with this but i want to see where it leads. though i sort of know already but i have just stopped caring. hair is hair. if it bothers the people i love i will change it but everyone seems supportive of a change in length. people always tell me the only reason that i hate curly hair is because i have curly hair which is not true. i know plenty of people who have curly hair and they dig it. i hate it. even on other people. but i am missing the point. i went job hunting today. there is no one else at the apartment so waking up to no one was weird. i didn't have to be quiet (because ph is usually sleeping). i got ready quickly and then headed out. i pasted the subway that i was planning on applying at first because it was really crowded. so i walked on. there was a shoe shop with a now hiring sign so i went in but knew i would not fit there. just a feeling. so i left. and got weird looks. i walked down state and then headed over to michigan untill i came upon the dreaded virgin megastore. i felt like i was betraying john cusak as i walked in and asked if they were hiring. even mark from empire records has more integrity than i do. sad. i was directed from desk to desk until someone actually found something for me to fill out. the usual. i sat in the magazine section and filled it out. in the "other abilities" section i put down avid fan of Bob Dylan and Woody Allen. this is bound to catch someones eye. i hope. i looked around a bit after i turned in the app and found that they had 2(!) copies of "ships" which i had been looking for furiously weeks prior and they did not have. things of this nature happen to me often. so i continued my search and headed over to a amc theater. i went up two super long elevators and reached a small desk where a huge woman gave me another application which i filled out quickly and left. i hate being up that high with those big windows. the rest of my search around the michigan ave was fruitless though i did see a guy with a "ninjas killed my family, need money" cardboard sign. i would have taken a picture but he looked like he would have killed me. so i walked back to this subway which was still pretty crowded but i didn't care anymore. so i asked for an application and sat down only to witness the craziest verbal fight i have ever seen in a subway. a black girl, probably in her mid twenties starts yelling at the latino guy behind the counter to start helping her when he is trying to help someone else. he tries to calm her down but she takes it as an insult and she starts shouting at the guy. so he asks his manager to help her which she does but this lady can't let it go and continues to harass this poor guy and he replies "who don't know me lady" to which she says "and you don't know me" followed by colorful language of which i will not repeat. i couldn't believe it. as i handed the guy my application he says to me "are you sure you want to work here?" i smiled and said "probably not." he laughed and i left. this is what i am doomed to experiance anywhere i work. so i better get used to it.